So, in Part 1, I shared why I started my blog and the direction it’s going in. In this next part, I’m baring my soul, and let me tell you, it’s scary to put this out there. I’m a private person. Over the course of the past 8 months as I’ve started to transform my life, I’ve had to answer a lot of personal question from friends and friends of friends who want a little insight into what I’ve done to make such a drastic change. (This may not be your issue, so if you might want to skip ahead…it won’t hurt my feelings.)
Here’s the gist of it.
1. I’m retraining my brain to think of food as fuel, not love.
2. I’ve looked to professionals for help and I actually ‘did the work’ this time.
3. I figured out the underlying source of my anxieties that trigger my emotional eating (and got a diagnosis of OCD in the process-who knew?), which is going to be the key to making this stick.
And I am here to tell you, it can work, if you do it.
I keep a sign in my bedroom that I see every morning when I get up and every night before I go to bed that says, Don’t Wish For It, Work For It.
Though I always wanted to get back to the ‘real me’, I fought it for a long time, trying every weight loss program…but I found what works for me and what doesn’t. I can’t succeed with a lot of options – Weight Watchers didn’t work for me, though I’ve tried it many times – if you tell me I can eat a portion of something every once in a while if I ‘count’ it, I will tell you I ate the whole damn thing and won’t be eating for the rest of the day. I have no off switch. I can’t do weird food. . . and, good heavens, I will never drink vinegar – I can’t even stand the smell, so crash diets were a no-go!
What works for me is eating just enough protein, a small amount of carbs, no sugar, no alcohol, no dairy…no fun, right? Well, in the space of 7 months, up to the point of writing this article, I’ve lost over 100 lbs. I’m not starving. I’m not exercising like crazy. I’m just following my weight loss program – Ideal Protein. You can look into it if you want – it’s not for everyone, but it might be your key, too.
Regardless of what you do, you can’t do ‘your version’ of the plan. I’ve done that so many times with other diets…uh, it doesn’t work! Yes, I’ve had to give up some of my favorite foods, ok, most of my favorite foods, in favor of foods my body loves. My birthday ‘cake’ this year was this amazing arrangement of vegetables that my sister made me. Isn’t it awesome?
There are trade-offs and lots of planning ahead, but the time and energy (which I now have) that I put into this has been returned to me by improving my health (my A1C went from right on the brink of diabetes, to absolutely normal), boosting my confidence (I’m finally taking ballroom dance lessons, something I’ve always wanted to do but couldn’t), clearing out and repopulating my closet (I LOVE getting dressed now…so many choices, I sometimes change more than once a day, just for fun!). I wake up in the morning not dreading facing people, but ready to get out and enjoy my life.
In part 3, I’ll share a few of the things that I’ve done along the way to get my head back in the game…writing, art, music, and yes, even dance.