I’ve been fiddling around with this blog for almost a year, trying to figure out what I wanted to add to the already crowded blogosphere. After some starts and stops and a lot of soul searching, I decided I wanted to share all the things I love and how they help me make my life sparkle…but I also wanted to share how I found my sparkle and I can’t do that without sharing how I lost it in the first place.
Get ready…’S about to get real, my dears!
For the past 20 years, I’ve found myself in one unhealthy relationship or another. I have a marriage that didn’t work out, several controlling ex’s, and a food addiction under my belt. As I experienced one failure after another in my personal life, I turned to food for comfort, love, and numbness. While I raised 2 smart, funny, talented kids during this time, I struggled to keep the ‘real me’ alive under the weight of my life – physical weight problems, financial troubles, clutter, job dissatisfaction, crippling anxiety and fear, and unfulfilling romantic relationships.
I settled for less than I deserved for a really, really long time because I didn’t feel worthy of anything good. I felt like my kids were my gift to the world, and they are, but there is so much more to me.
I’m just getting started figuring how to be all the things I want to be. I’m making my life a masterpiece, the vision I had for myself as a young, hopeful girl. I’ve re-opened my life up to all the things I’m passionate about: music, art, books, theatre, dance, friends.
I want to share some of my exploration and my journey of how I got back the ‘real me’ that was under all this weight.
It was a long journey, and I’m going to be honest, it was hard work…it still is.
In Part Two, I’ll share with you a little of my personal story about how things fell apart and how I am putting the pieces back together.
In Part Three, I’ll share the things that have inspired me and make me excited to wake up every morning.
One final thought….let’s be clear here, I’m not looking for validation, judgement, or pity. I’m sharing my story to help others like me get their groove back by inviting beauty into their lives. Any comments that are purposely negative will be deleted, ‘k?